I knew there was a problem when my breathers became less like breathers and more like homework. (And I need to apologize because this rant is more for me than for you, since I need a way to reason out why I’m not having as much fun as I used to and how I can fix this.)
I started PB because I needed to take breathers, but in the last few months, reading has been becoming more stressful. I started to avoid my books.
It may be because I’ve imposed a blogging schedule, but I think the real reason is that I want to read and review all day everyday. I’m the type of person who likes to make checklists and who loves planners to death, so it’s inevitable that I wanted to fill up my calendar with plans to read books and publish posts everyday. And I was feeling so accomplished and motivated until real life started becoming more time-consuming and I realized that I didn’t have time for all of it!
Then there’s also the pressure from reading ARCs. I swear, NetGalley is one of the best and worst things to happen to me. It pushes me to plan more and schedule more and read MORE and what if I don’t like the book I’m reading? I ditch it for a while to read another book, and I end up with a lot of books I need to finish and a whole lot of stress. My problem is the “need” in that previous sentence; it’s hard to pick out the positive aspects of a book (which I’m trying to do as per my New Year’s resolutions) when I feel like I can’t DNF a book.
That’s when I realized that I’VE BEEN DOING IT WRONG. After reading recent posts by Nikki and Cee and Jamie as well as many others about keeping (or throwing away) reading schedules, I’ve decided that the best way to make reading fun again is to go back to mood reading. This doesn’t mean that I’m scrapping my review schedule though – I’m just changing how OFTEN I read (which will affect how often I post) and WHAT I read, and WHAT I stop reading.
I feel like that’s one of the reasons that book bloggers burn out: reading stops becoming a fun and relaxing pastime, and instead, it becomes that shadow lurking at the back of your mind reminding you of things you left unfinished.
So note to self: you don’t have to review every ARC. You don’t have to finish every damn book. You don’t have to post every week. Scrap the reading schedule. Remember the reasons you read and blog.
(Have you ever avoided your books?
Do you read based on a schedule or based on your mood?)